13虽然主说到赏赐(1、5),但这里重要的事不是赏赐,乃是在生命里长大。在明处长大的圣徒,不是健康的长大。我们都需要一些生命中隐密的长大,一些对基督隐密的经历。我们需要隐密地祷告主、敬拜主、接触主并与主交通,也许连最亲近我们的人,也不知道或领会我们在作什么。我们需要这些对主隐密的经历,因为这样的经历杀死我们的己和我们的肉体。虽然怒气和情欲很丑陋,但最阻挠我们生命长大的乃是己。己是最明显的,它喜欢公开在人面前行事。己喜欢在人面前行义。我们都必须承认,我们有这样的己,没有一人例外。那些行事总要公开显扬的人,就是满了己,满了肉体。己喜爱得人荣耀,肉体喜爱被人注视。……每当我们来到这段话时,我们必须领悟这段话乃是暴露我们的己和我们的肉体(马太福音生命读经,二八八至二九一页)。
13Although the Lord spoke about the matter of reward (vv. 1, 5), the important thing here is not the reward but the growth in life. The saints who grow openly do not grow in a healthy way. We all need some secret growth in life, some secret experiences of Christ. We need to pray to the Lord, worship the Lord, contact the Lord, and fellowship with the Lord in a secret way. Perhaps not even the one closest to us will know or understand what we are doing. We need these secret experiences of the Lord because such experiences kill our self and our flesh. Although anger and lust are ugly, the thing that most frustrates us from growing in life is the self. The self is most visible in the fact that it enjoys doing things in a public way, in the presence of man. The self likes to do righteous deeds before man. We all must admit that, without exception, we have such a self. Those who always want to do things in such a way as to make a public show are full of self, full of the flesh. The self loves to be glorified, and the flesh loves to be gazed upon…Whenever we come to this portion of the Word, we must realize that it exposes our self and our flesh. (Life-study of Matthew, pp. 242-244)